Friday, July 2, 2010

If


If only life had an eraser to the pencil of KARMA,
Had an UNDO for every wrong and REDO for every pleasure
If only Life was a circle and things would return back
If only Life had a sunrise and never a sunset
If only the said had a backspace and my dictionary had no HATE
If only I could eat my words or walk back the taken steps.
If only I could wash the left footmarks or redo my actions.
If only I could work again with the lost relations or get them along whom I had left long way back.
If only I could fill the silence with speech and speech with silence.
If only I could get you by my side or come by yours...
I would have looked back at you,
But I sit here by the window
Smiling at a new day, a new beginning, a new face , a new I and a new You

Eternity


Where  every  moment  is  lived  up  to  its  life,
And  success  is  a  celebrated  strife.
Where  the  day  breaks  with  chirping  of  birds,
And  where  silence  speaks  more  than  words.
Where  life  is  a  board  and  Karma  its  dart,
And  where  relations  fall  in  love  - never  apart.
Where  there’s  a  cry  buried  in  every  smile,
And  where  there’s  a  ‘WE’ following  every  ‘ I ’ .
Where  every  dream  shall  come  true,
And  every  ‘MY’  will  have  ‘YOU’
To  that  land  you’ll  take
To  that  country  We  shall  sail.

Monday, December 28, 2009

If only you could hear







A text in my note-book,  
5 articles in my drawer,  
A sketch in my diary,  
A picture in the hard disk,  
An IM on my cell,  
A conversation in my mind,  
Impressions on my heart,  
Memories in my eyes,  
Emotions in my Soul, 
is what makes...  
YOU Live In ME.
 
Your voice makes me tremble even now, as if it was the first time we spoke. I still sleep over every single conversation we had, as if it was the last one. I dream you everyday, as if it the last thing to dream. I pray for you everyday, as if I was never to live. I call you everyday, as if it was the farewell day. I altercate with you in most of our conversations, as if I've loved you enough. I say 'goodbye forever' at the end, as if you would call me up again. I hear you in every song I listen, I see you in every character I dream of. You've got inside me so much, as if we were soul-mate. I feel so lost in you, that I hear nothing around. If you could hear me, hear all that I say each day. If you could see me, see the sleepless nights I had thinking about you, if you could fell, feel the love I've for you, if you could smell, smell the fragrance of amity we have between us. If only you were I, you would have understood it. Somewhere I know, even you feel and think the same. You never said, but I can hear every time you say a 'hello'. I never said, but you always heard, each time I said 'bye'. Such a strange relation we share !! We say everything, still nothing. We mean everything, still nothing, we see everything, still nothing. I can bear this no longer, I die each day I live, I live each day I feel for you. I want you to know what I feel, I want you to say what you see. This silence is unbearable. I see our love in each fairy-tale, I see the same end of our lovely tale. Such things I've never felt and I know I won't ever. Everything that was ever in me, belonged to you. And it shall always be ! I still look into your eyes  just to let you know what all I felt. I still say things in a way to make you hear all that I never said. I look at you each day, I call you each day just with a hope that you'll hear THE UNSAID. And all my hopes say - ' If only you could hear'

  Things for which I did say "it never mattered & won't ever", inside I knew that something is LOST. 
Something that I owned, something that was mine. 
It might be a letter, a conversation, a smile, my emotions, feelings, maybe trust or love. 
I know I won't feel the same again, for it did matter. Something was LOST, something inside was... lost - my 'self', the inner 'I'.. 
and 
This Gain- Loss of 'I' that we face is actually -"being human".